Not In That Way

I hate to say I love you

When it's so hard for me

And I hate to say I want you

When you make it so clear

You don't want me

I'd never ask you cause deep down

I'm certain I know what you'd say

You'd say I'm sorry believe me

I love you but not in that way

And I hate to say I need you

I'm so reliant

I'm so dependant

I'm such a fool

When you're not there

I find myself singing the blues

Can't bear

Can't face the truth

Shine On You

Once upon a time there was a meeting of minds

The sun and the moon made a deal with the sky

One would take the morning and the other the night

Together they would blanket the world with light

But the moon had a shadow, he felt like a liar

The sun was the only one who carried the fire

The sun saw this, she kept on glowing

Bound to the moon, never saying, "you owe me"

She said I'll shine on you (shine on you)

I will shine on you (shine on you)

I will shine on you (shine on you)

I will shine on you

Claiming My Power

There is no need to give your power away to somebody else.

Today, I am claiming my Power.

I am owning my Truth.

I am accepting my Kingdom.

I am seeing my Value.

I am honoring my Strengths.

I am loving my Self.

No more playing small and giving my energy where it is not received and magnified back even brighter. It is far too valuable.

Remember, their truth isn't THE truth and it definitely doesn't need to be YOUR truth.

Nobody knows you and what your intentions are more than yourself.

As long as you can be at peace with what you gave and how deeply you cared, and how passionately you lived, nothing else matters.

Focus on mastering your Output. Not trying to fix other people's Input. Because ultimately..... you can only control what you GIVE out to the Universe.

You can't control each person's ability to receive it.

So why put your energy into trying to get them to hear your frequency when they're not even tuned in to the same station?

Love yourself enough to know that you are brilliant and OWN YOUR TRUTH.

Nothing will liberate you more than that.

And THAT, is what freedom truly is.

A Hard Rain's A-Gonna Fall

Oh, where have you been, my blue-eyed son?

And where have you been my darling young one?

I've stumbled on the side of twelve misty mountains

I've walked and I've crawled on six crooked highways

I've stepped in the middle of seven sad forests

I've been out in front of a dozen dead oceans

I've been ten thousand miles in the mouth of a graveyard

And it's a hard, it's a hard, it's a hard, and it's a hard

It's a hard rain's a-gonna fall.

Oh, what did you see, my blue eyed son?

And what did you see, my darling young one?

I saw a newborn baby with wild wolves all around it

I saw a highway of diamonds with nobody on it

I saw a black branch with blood that kept drippin'

I saw a room full of men with their hammers a-bleedin'

I saw a white ladder all covered with water

I saw ten thousand talkers whose tongues were all broken

I saw guns and sharp swords in the hands of young children

And it's a hard, it's a hard, it's a hard, and it's a hard

It's a hard rain's a-gonna fall.

Pure InsanitISM

Most of the world gave up on freedom and liberty a long time ago, by design.

And the People of the United States have shown the most resistance to that design, being the 'World's' last hope, the biggest stumbling block to the diabolical objectives of the World's sole enemy. 

I would not look the world over for answers, nor be concerned or influenced with much outside our direct responsibility as the People of the United States.

Today all R's and 'D's from dog catcher to president have (or they could not be in office) become total shills for the foreign controlling global "central (FED) banking elites", All, no exceptions have turned their backs on the American People, many in total ignorance but total shills none the less. 

Not one living and breathing R D or I elected or appointed in office today in the United States from local, city councilmen, to governors of state and all federal office holders, not one represents a single breathing American.  

Not a single one!! 

Pills And Potions - I'm Angry But I Still Love You

A yo they could never make me hate you

Even though what you was doing wasn't tasteful

Even though you out here looking so ungrateful

Imma keep it moving, be classy and graceful

I told 'em it's no friends in the game

You ain't learned that yet

All the bridges you came over, don't burn that yet

Niggas want respect, but niggas ain't earned that yet

Self-righteous, and entitled

But they swearing on the Bible that they love you

Getting Situated - Phoenix Aquua

Hey Folks,

Yes yes yes I know I’ve been away for quiet a while. I’m always disappearing on you folks.

I’m sorry, I really am. I'm still getting a little acclimated to my new diggs here in Yuba City, California, and loving it!

I've been trying to furnish my humble abode and make it comfortable enough so that I could get back to my blog.....there is so much to talk about...and experiences I'd love to share.

Not too sure which way my blog is heading.....I'll just have to go with the flow and see where it takes me....

...in the meantime, I have posted lots of information I think you should be aware of...visit my facebook page.

Phoenix — out

Who'll Stop The Rain?

Long as I remember,

The rain been comin' down.

Clouds of myst'ry pourin'

Confusion on the ground.

Good men through the ages

Tryin' to find the sun.

And I wonder,

Still I wonder

Who'll stop the rain.

Love Someone

Love is a funny thing

Whenever I give it, it comes back to me

And it's wonderful to be

Giving with my whole heart

As my heart receives

Your love

Oh, ain't it nice tonight we've got each other

And I am right beside you

More than just a partner or a lover

I'm your friend

Back To The Earth

Whenever my head starts to hurt

Before it goes from bad to feeling worse

I turn off my phone, I get down low

And put my hands in the dirt

I try to stop the world from moving so fast

Try to get a grip on where I'm at

To simplify this daisy life,

And put my feet in the grass

I'm going back to the Earth

I'm going back to work

I'm going back to the Earth

Mutual Core

I shuffle around the tectonic plates in my chest.

You know I gave it all,

Try to match our continents

To change seasonal shift,

To form a mutual core.

As fast as your fingernail grows,

The Atlantic ridge drifts

To counteract distance.

You know I gave it all,

Can you hear the effort of the magnetic strife?

Shuffling of columns

To form a mutual core.

This eruption undoes stagnation.

You didn't know I had it in me,

Withheld your love, an unspent capsule.

I didn't know you had it in you,

You hid the key to our continuity.

I didn't know you had it in you.

This eruption undoes stagnation.

You didn't know, you didn't know.

What you resist persists, nuance makes heat

To counteract distance

I know you gave it all,

Offered me harmony if things were done your way.

My Eurasian plate subsumed,

Forming a mutual core

This eruption undoes stagnation.

You didn't know I had it in me,

Withheld your love, an unspent capsule.

I didn't know you had it in you.

This eruption undoes stagnation

You didn't know I had it in me

This eruption undoes stagnation

You didn't know, you didn't know.

United States No Longer The Land Of The Free

Happy 4th of July?

How can it be happy when the United States has continued rollbacks on civil liberties in the United States conflicts with the view of the country as the land of the free. 

If we are going to adopt Chinese legal principles, we should at least have the integrity to adopt one Chinese proverb:

“The beginning of wisdom is to call things by their right names.” 

We seem as a country to be in denial as to the implications of these laws and policies. Whether we are viewed as a free country with authoritarian inclinations or an authoritarian nation with free aspirations (or some other hybrid definition), we are clearly not what we once were. 

Every year, the State Department issues reports on individual rights in other countries, monitoring the passage of restrictive laws and regulations around the world. Iran, for example, has been criticized for denying fair public trials and limiting privacy, while Russia has been taken to task for undermining due process. Other countries have been condemned for the use of secret evidence and torture.

Even as we pass judgment on countries we consider unfree, Americans remain confident that any definition of a free nation must include their own — the land of free. Yet, the laws and practices of the land should shake that confidence. In the decade since Sept. 11, 2001, this country has comprehensively reduced civil liberties in the name of an expanded security state. 

The most recent example of this was the National Defense Authorization Act, signed Dec. 31, which allows for the indefinite detention of citizens.