Is It Time To Say Goodbye?

People who have a mental illness can’t take care of themselves and they are going to end up on the street. 

Their behavior destroys families and relationships.

Their behavior is destroying them.

Believe me, I get it. I really, really do.

I have to accepted that not everyone with a mental illness will get help.

Sometimes you have to say goodbye to a person with a mental illness.

Sometimes you have to cut a person with mental illness out of your life.

This is what I read about, what advice I get, and through experience I've learned....

...like many of us I’m just trying to deal. At least now I can easily spot when a manic session is going to happen. 

I saw it this morning and knew the day was going to end a raging violent manic spiral.

It did!

He is an abusive, destructive force that no one can stand to be around lest they get pulled into convincing delusions and psychoses or have to fear his violent rage.

Being in the same room with him is like being hit repeatedly with a hard, blunt object.

It only feels good when you stop.

Believe me, I get it.

This mental illness reality is unbearably painful as it will shortly result in his having nowhere to live.

I don’t know if he will have any friends.

I don’t know if he’ll have enough food to eat.

I don’t know whether he’ll even live to tell the tale.

So you see, I get it.

I don’t just willy-nilly post this stuff....its very serious and is a dangerous situation which overwhelms me financially, and emotionally.

I am being given advice by so many "experiencers" to distance myself from "intractable crazy".

They tell me this because I need to be told.

I’m not mean, uncaring, inflexible, unhelpful or cruel.

I’m trying to save myself from this damned Titanic...I need to make the jump to a damn lifeboat, but am scared and guilty of saving myself.

People who won’t get treatment and continue to hurt you are the Titanic.

Period.

No more acceptable promises which end broken.

I can't help someone who isn't willing to help themselves.

Self destruction is ugly.

As I write this I weep. I weep for his pain. I weep for what he’s going through. I weep for what I know drives him to his behavior.

I weep for his mentally ill brain.

I weep for me because the kind, caring boy hiding under the covers is gone....

...and there’s nothing I can do to bring him back.

It's time to say Goodbye.

Standing With Standing Rock

So to the folks that have felt opposition regarding or ignored this matter. . .please, please take a moment look at the movement that is taking place!!

It is so beautiful, so raw, and so powerful!!

# 1 the people at the camps are remaining in prayer, embodying a peaceful stance and maintaining HOPE, despite the terror and serious harm incurred as a result of government authorities poor actions (these are officers that have taken an oath to protect the public)

# 2 the militarized personnel was hired to enforce the interest of Dakota Access Pipeline, not anyone else, please get that straight (they are officers from various U.S. regions and agencies. You, we are paying for terrorism against our indigenous brothers and sisters for a CORPORATION, NOT for safety . . . this is the Stanford Prison Experiment on fucking greedy heroin man)

# 3 Dakota Access (Energy Transfer Criminals) does not have legal permits to do anything on the land there! However, because they are willing to move forward illegally by paying the fines as result (paltry to them, never mind this is a criminal act and they have the hired personnel protecting them, yet Obama wants to wait it out, to see what happens, as if this is a fair and responsible action)

# 4 the treaties of Fort Laramie will clearly outline for you that the land the Standing Rock tribes are defending, is indeed theirs (actually every fucking piece of land we’re on in the America’s belong to the indigenous). Our government illegally went against their own treaty and stole the land some years later, but if we’re upholding law, as Obama promised and said he would also provide assistance should the first nations need it . . . then the Energy Transfer Criminals would not have been giving the freedom to terrorize. However, we’re clearly a terrorist country and North Dakota is a terrorist state that enables such injustices and atrocities to occur. Now the DAPL company is enforcing that bunk theft and escaping the very law our government wrote, passed and promised to uphold. Please educate yourself and review the treaty:

http://ndstudies.gov/gr8/content/unit-iii-waves-development-1861-1920/lesson-4-alliances-and-conflicts/topic-2-sitting-bulls-people/section-3-treaties-fort-laramie-1851-1868

# 5 In America there is more than one location involved in defense of opposition against the last grab for squeezing as much profit out of what’s left of the pipeline industry. Particularly, there are three camps at Standing Rock that are totally self-sustaining and self-governing with thousands of people from different cultures, age, and walks of life. They are running solely on donations and support from the outside, from us . . . from people from other tribes, other nations and countries. That is a major league guys!!

How awesome!! Imagine that, let that sit with you . . . WOW!

# 6 their are over 2,000 retired U.S. veterans heading to Standing Rock next week to assist them peacefully in defending their land.

# 7 Countless citizens have gone up to the Standing Rock camps, and many others have organized and rallied in other states in support, raising awareness, building the movement . . . you getting the picture here . . .

# 8 individuals that have been seriously harmed in ways that their lives are forever altered have received an outpour of support and monetary donations in return for their sacrifices, to help them heal and recover . . . our own government can’t even provide for and support their own vets they use and abuse for their corrupt game of real life monopoly.

What all this means . . . the totalitarian regime is losing its power, this is end game stuff here people!

We have been led by the first nations of this land, by those we have gravely oppressed and marginalized for over 500 years!

Yet, we have officers that have taken oath to protect us, protecting entities that only care for their invested interest of monetary gain . . . not human welfare, or the health and life of any being in its path! What has taken place up to now has clearly demonstrated that the people indeed have the true power, when a good amount of us unite!

I support and stand with Standing Rock and their peaceful fight, our fight! I am grateful for them and I pray for vindication and justice to be served!

Those ruling entities grasping at straws for power should be scared, they should be worried, they should be willing to retreat, they should be willing to stand down and allow the future to be birthed rightfully and freely so, as we want it. What future do you want? Looking back on history, what will you say to your grandchildren, what will your family’s legacy be?

For me, when I stared into that big oil execs eyes a few weeks back, vulnerably exposed, shaking, standing tall but crying and praying for him, all while worried that the riot cops were going to make me their next victim before I could get away . . .

I saw a brief glimpse of that fear in his eyes, that shame, that he knew what he was involved in was wrong.

I see now, despite the evil and oppression they've exhibited.

The propaganda, the lies, the backassward folks pouring out of the woodwork acting as if they’re justified for their racist and ignorant upbringing . . . A

ll that has happened and taken place . . . clearly shows that they are losing power, they are in the wrong, and that we can co-create so much more when we unite, accept differences, and appreciate another’s culture, another’s fundamental right . . .

I have no doubt that our brothers and sisters at Standing Rock with their allies, can do this, that we can help even from afar, to finally win what's rightfully theirs, ours . . . this is so much bigger than anything on the platter right now guys! Not dismissing any other injustices, pain or suffering . . . but humble yourselves . . . look deeply . . . this right here . . . this is an opportunity to right so many wrongs and to establish a strong foundation for the future we're headed towards . . . the one we want to be headed towards . . . soak it in, pray on it, feel it, breath it in and out . . . let it flow . . . let’s get it together . . .

STAND WITH STANDING ROCK, STAND FOR ALL OF OUR RIGHTS . . . WATER IS SACRED . . . SO IS LIFE . . . FREEDOM, RESPECT and SOVERIGNTY!

Sending so much love and hugs out to you all!!

"UPDATE: 11/25 COMMANDER AND STAFF
2K EVENT CAPACITY ACHIEVED
REMINDER: NO WEAPONS, NO EXCEPTIONS.

Leave your anger at home we will no doubt encounter hostility from various sources - prepare yourself mentally for that but also prepare yourself for the power of 2,000 Veterans from every corner of this country coming together with no regard for race, color, gender, politics, religious affiliation...nothing but a commitment to the oath they signed to protect this country and its people. An oath that cannot be unsigned, that promise of service and honor.

The eyes of the world are upon you now, and now more than ever we need this action to succeed.

Help make this a success for humanity and reminder that every soldier is a hero, everyday."

The Harder We Fall

The bigger your awakening bliss... the harder you will fall...

A person can struggle to fully awaken, if they’ve already had one or more smaller awakenings. Because they lock-on to that past experience - seeing it as a reference point, a goal, something to achieve, ‘get back again’ and maintain.

But this only takes them further from their perceived ‘goal’ of awakening.

Big awakening shifts are incredibly powerful - usually with many profound realisations, and weeks or months of walking around in a blissful and connected love state. It is inexplicably beautiful, but it can only last so long, because life has an even more beautiful way of making us face its truth…

Because nothing is permanent, and like all states and experiences, our apparent ‘awakening’ inevitably comes to an end, and we are thrown right back into ego and suffering, often in the form of a ‘dark night of the soul’. During this painful time, all our conditioning comes up to the surface to be healed, and the more we resist, the longer the dark night lasts.

We may go through many awakenings and subsequent dark nights during a lifetime, and this is life’s way of showing us that wholeness contains both the dark and the light, and everything is to be embraced. But of course, we are often not ready to face this truth, and the more powerful and blissful our awakening experience was, the more devastated we feel when we lose that feeling.

A voice might scream inside our heads with frustration and exhaustion, ‘I had it, but now I’ve lost it!’ And then the tears and self-pity flow, with more abundance than we ever knew possible.

We react, by trying to get back ‘there’ - to that awakened state, to that simple knowing of stillness and unconditional wholeness.

We seek that amazing past experience, because we mistakenly believe that it is how awakening should feel all the time - that awakening is a fixed emotional state. We want to get that taste of enlightenment back again, and we beat ourselves up for not being able to ‘maintain’ it.

In truth, we never ‘had’ anything, and we never ‘lost’ anything.

But it’s a very seductive and powerful trap, and the bigger our awakening bliss… the more easily we can fall for this trap, and the harder we fall.

So we keep on pounding our egos at the wall of illusion, endlessly seeking, in ever-growing suffering and frustration. We brutally reject ourselves for not being able to maintain our ‘spiritual’ identity, for not being good enough, for failing. Our dark nights can overwhelm and smother us with such intense self-hatred, that our past awakening experience seems like a distant candle of lost hope, flickering and fading in the gust of our desperation.

The more we seek what we thought we had, the further we take ourselves from recognizing that we already are it.

But there is another way – the way of self-compassion and acceptance - we can choose to stop seeking, give up the chase, let go of all our ideas and expectations about ourselves and awakening, cast aside our fears, and stand in fierce surrender to the absolute truth of life.

And when we fully surrender, it means we fully embrace and accept all aspects of ourselves, including our suffering. This is a radical act of self-love, and through this beautiful act of being, our suffering transcends into bittersweet pain, slowly losing its grip, until it dissolves completely in the power of our fearless acceptance of what is.

And then we truly wake up, to the reality that awakening is not about trying to live in bliss all the time. It’s about accepting every aspect of every moment as it arises, and right here, right in the heart of this moment, through our ultimate acceptance, we notice an effortless bliss, freedom and an end to our suffering. Pain is still present, but it is embraced and loved, just as much as more ‘desirable’ emotions. Everything is welcomed, invited, embraced and loved, in the wholeness that we are, by the wholeness that we are.

And then we see the perfection in all of it - the bigger our awakening bliss and the more deeply we experienced that unconditional love… the harder we fall and the more deeply we suffered afterwards. And in that painfully vast depth of feelings and emotions, we discover vastly richer and more beautiful expressions of life to embrace and love. And we know that we are blessed.

So we can allow ourselves to fall into our dark nights, plunging heart-first into the depths of who we are, knowing that if we truly surrender, we will discover all the love, acceptance and wholeness that we once thought we had, and once thought we’d lost.

People Are Deluded

The Buddha said people are deluded.

This Is why when they act they fall into the river of endless rebirth. And when they try to get out they only sink deeper. And all because they don't see their nature. If people weren't deluded why would they ask about something right in front of them?

Not one of they understands the movement of his own hands and feet. The Buddha wasn't mistaken.

Deluded people don't know who they are. A Buddha and no one else know something so hard to fathom.

Only the wise knows mind, this mind call nature, this mind called liberation. Neither life nor death can restrain this mind.

Nothing can. It's also called the Unstoppable Tathagata," the Incomprehensible, the Sacred Self, the Immortal, the Great Sage. Its names vary but not its essence. Buddhas vary too, but none leaves his own mind. The mind's capacity is limitless, and its manifestations are inexhaustible.

Seeing forms with your eyes, hearing sounds with your ears, smelling odors with your nose, tasting flavors with your tongue, every movement or state is your entire mind. At every moment, where language can't go, that's your mind.

The sutras say, "A Tathagata's forms are endless. And so is his awareness." The endless variety of forms is due to the mind. Its ability to distinguish things, whatever their movement or state, is the mind's awareness.

But the mind has no form and its awareness no limit.

Hence it's said, "A Tathagata's forms are endless. And so is his awareness." A material body of the four elements" is trouble.

A material body is subject to birth and death. But the real body exists without existing, because a Tathagata's real body never changes.

The sutras say,

"People should realize that the buddha-nature is something they have always had."

Kashyapa only realized his own nature.

Our nature is the mind.

And the mind is our nature.

This nature is the same as the mind of all Buddhas. Buddhas of the past and future only transmit this mind.

Beyond this mind there's no Buddha anywhere.

But deluded people don't realize that their own mind is the Buddha.

They keep searching outside.

They never stop invoking Buddhas or worshipping Buddhas and wondering Where is the buddha?

Don't indulge in such illusions.

Just know your mind.

Beyond your mind there's no other Buddha.

The sutras say,

"Everything that has form is an illusion."

They also say,

"Wherever you are, there's a Buddha."

Your mind is the Buddha.

Don't use a Buddha to worship a Buddha.

Death Is Nothing

Death is nothing at all.
It does not count.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
Nothing has happened.

Everything remains exactly as it was.
I am I, and you are you,
and the old life that we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged.
Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.

Call me by the old familiar name.
Speak of me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.

Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes that we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without an effort, without the ghost of a shadow upon it.

Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same as it ever was.
There is absolute and unbroken continuity.
What is this death but a negligible accident?

Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am but waiting for you, for an interval,
somewhere very near,
just round the corner.

All is well.
Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost.
One brief moment and all will be as it was before.
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again...

All I Ask

I will leave my heart at the door
I won't say a word
They've all been said before you know
So why don't we just play pretend
Like we're not scared of what's coming next
Or scared of having nothing left

Look, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is

If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
'Cause what if I never love again?

I don't need your honesty
It's already in your eyes
And I'm sure my eyes, they speak for me
No one knows me like you do
And since you're the only one that matters
Tell me who do I run to?

Look, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is

If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
'Cause what if I never love again?

Let this be our lesson in love
Let this be the way we remember us
I don't wanna be cruel or vicious
And I ain't asking for forgiveness
All I ask is

If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
'Cause what if I never love again?

Soon I Will Be Gone

I am only 24 years old, yet I have actually already chosen my last tie. It’s the one that I will wear on my funeral a few months from now. It may not match my suit, but I think it’s perfect for the occasion.

The cancer diagnosis came too late to give me at least a tenuous hope for a long life, but I realized that the most important thing about death is to ensure that you leave this world a little better than it was before you existed with your contributions . The way I’ve lived my life so far, my existence or more precisely the loss of it, will not matter because I have lived without doing anything impactful.

Before, there were so many things that occupied my mind. When I learned how much time I had left, however, it became clear which things are really important. So, I am writing to you for a selfish reason. I want to give meaning to my life by sharing with you what I have realized:

Don’t waste your time on work that you don’t enjoy. It is obvious that you cannot succeed in something that you don’t like. Patience, passion, and dedication come easily only when you love what you do.

It’s stupid to be afraid of others’ opinions. Fear weakens and paralyzes you. If you let it, it can grow worse and worse every day until there is nothing left of you, but a shell of yourself. Listen to your inner voice and go with it. Some people may call you crazy, but some may even think you‘re a legend.

Take control of your life Take full responsibility for the things that happen to you. Limit bad habits and try to lead a healthier life. Find a sport that makes you happy. Most of all, don’t procrastinate. Let your life be shaped by decisions you made, not by the ones you didn’t.

Appreciate the people around you Your friends and relatives will always be an infinite source of strength and love. That is why you shouldn’t take them for granted.

It is difficult for me to fully express my feelings about the importance of these simple realizations, but I hope that you will listen to someone who has experienced how valuable time is.

I'm not upset because I understand that the last days of my life have become meaningful. I only regret that I will not be able to see a lot of cool stuff that should happen soon like the creation of AI, or Elon Musk’s next awesome project. I also hope that the war in Syria and Ukraine will end soon.

We care so much about the health and integrity of our body that until death, we don’t notice that the body is nothing more than a box - a parcel for delivering our personality, thoughts, beliefs and intentions to this world. If there is nothing in this box that can change the world, then it doesn’t matter if it disappears. I believe that we all have potential, but it also takes a lot of courage to realize it.

You can float through a life created by circumstances, missing day after day, hour after hour. Or, you can fight for what you believe in and write the great story of your life. I hope you will make the right choice.

Leave a mark in this world. Have a meaningful life, whatever definition it has for you. Go towards it. The place we are leaving is a beautiful playground, where everything is possible. Yet, we are not here forever. Our life is a short spark in this beautiful little planet that flies with incredible speed to the endless darkness of the unknown universe. So, enjoy your time here with passion. Make it interesting. Make it count!

Thank you!

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This Is All We Know

Fighting flames of fire
Hang onto burning wires
We don't care anymore

Are we fading lovers?

We keep wasting colors
Maybe we should let this go
We're falling apart, still we hold together
We've passed the end, so we chase forever

'Cause this is all we know
This feeling's all we know

I'll ride my bike up to the road
Down the streets right through the city
I'll go everywhere you go
From Chicago to the coast

You tell me,

“Hit this and let's go, blow the smoke right through the window”

'Cause this is all we know

Never face each other
One bed, different covers
We don’t care anymore
Two hearts still beating
On with different rhythms

Maybe we should let this go

We're falling apart, still we hold together
We've passed the end, so we chase forever

'Cause this is all we know

Are You Ready To Jump?

For what it’s worth: It’s never too late to be whoever you want to be. I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you find that you’re not, I trust you have the strength to start over.

This is life.

People will screw you over. You’ll fight with your family. You’ll witness things that will change you forever. You’ll blame new lovers for things old lovers did. You’ll lose best friends you thought would always be there. You’ll come to realize that everyone has a past.

You’ll cry, you’ll laugh, and you’ll embarrass yourself.

But then, you’ll find your very own moment where none of that matters; where you can sit back and realize that shit happens to the people who can handle it and that this is who you are, and that no one should want to change you, including yourself.

It amazes me how easy it is for things to change, how easy it is to start off down the same road you always take and wind up somewhere new. Just one false step, one pause, one detour, and you end up with new friends or a bad reputation or a boyfriend or a breakup.

It’s never occurred to me before; I’ve never been able to see it. And it makes me feel, weirdly, like maybe all of these different possibilities exist at the same time, like each moment we live has a thousand other moments layered underneath it that look different.

It’s amazing how at one point in our lives we will be extremely close with someone and then later they will become a complete stranger.

You will pass by them without a word. Without a single acknowledging look. This person, who once knew you so well, who once knew your fears, your desires, your dreams, your past, is now walking right past you, seeing right through you.

Right now I want a word that describes the feeling you get – a cold sick feeling, deep down inside – when you know something is happening that will change you, and you don’t want it to, but you can’t stop it. And you know, for the first time, for the very first time, that there will now be a before and an after, a was and a will be. And that you will never again quite be the same person you were.

Don’t you long for something different to happen, something so new and exciting it carries you along with it like a great tide, something that lets your life blaze and burn so the whole world can see it?

I’m not going to spend my life chasing people.

You wanna leave? Fine then, go ahead.

‘Cause I’m done with chasing and caring for people who never had interest in me.

Nothing lasts and people change.

I’ve learned love is hard and life is strange.

At this age, everything is changing. Day by day...we don’t notice, but just look back over the past year and you will realize everything has.

People you thought were going to be there forever aren’t, and people you never imagined you’d be speaking to are now some of your closest friends.

Life makes little sense, and the more we grow the less sense it will make.

So make the most of it now, before it all changes once again, because in the near future, all of this is only going to be memories.

You’re afraid to do things or try something new, but in the end, if you don’t take chances, you’re going to shut out the best things in life.

You know it’s been said that we just don’t recognise the significant moments of our lives while they are happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things or people and we take them for granted and it’s usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you that you’ve realized how wrong you’ve been that you realized how much you need it, how much you love it.

At some point, you’ve just got to jump.

There's only so much you can learn in one place. The more that I wait, the more time that I waste.

I haven't got much time to waste it's time to make my way, I'm not afraid of what I'll face but I'm afraid to stay in one place.

I'm going down my road and I can make it alone, I'll work and I'll fight till I find a place of my own.

Are you ready to jump?

Get ready to jump, don't ever look back...just take my hand and get ready to jump!

I've  learned my lessons from the start...that the only thing I can depend on are my friends.

Life's gonna drop you down like the limbs from a tree...It sways and it swings and it bends until it makes you see.

Are you ready?

There's only so much you can learn in one place, the more that you wait, the more time that you waste.

We will make it alone, Dan and me.

You’ve got to quit being scared of the “maybes” and “what-ifs” and just fucking jump.

Quit cheating yourself out of the best thing that could ever happen to you, and just fall. Fall hard, fall long, and fall forever.

When you start to see people change, you start to wonder if they were like this in the beginning, and if you just never noticed it.

But don’t forget you once loved who they were before. Don’t take it out on them for changing, because nobody stays the same. We all grow and we all change.

People leave and things they change.

You will never get all that you want, that’s why we gotta learn to live with what we’ve do have. And no matter how much, or how little, always take comfort in knowing that someone, somewhere loves you with all of their heart.

You might not know who just yet but I promise you that there is someone out there who will give you their all, with no hesitations.

Sometimes, there are things in our life that aren’t meant to stay. Sometimes, change may not be what we want.

Sometimes, change is exactly what we need. And sometimes, saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you’ll never have to do, but sometimes, saying hello again is the thing that breaks you down and makes you more vulnerable than you ever thought possible.

Sometimes, change is too much to bear.

But most of the time, change is the only thing saving your life.

No matter how long it takes, it will get better. No matter how many tears there will always be a time when your eyes stop crying and your eyes start shining again. Just know that everything will be alright no matter what you, he, or she thinks. Because life is nothing but a big elastic band. Stretched to one end, it will always bounce back the beginning, in the end.

I don’t think feelings change, nor people. I think situations change.

I know that it’s possible to dislike someone after loving them so much or to love someone after feeling so much hate towards them but, it’s not because people change, it’s because it’s not the same anymore. It’s because something made you think differently, something opened your eyes, something caused you to see everyday the way it is at last.

It’s like days.

Days can be cloudy, or days can be sunny but days don’t change, the weather does. And nothing can play a part in that or fix that, they can just let it be.

Are you ready to Jump?

Phoenix - out

A Clear Message - Stop War

As long as I am alive, and with my last breath, I protest! 

Stop this fighting....and end all wars!!!

Come you masters of war
You that build the big guns
You that build the death planes
You that build all the bombs
You that hide behind walls
You that hide behind desks
I just want you to know
I can see through your masks

You that never done nothin'
But build to destroy
You play with my world
Like it's your little toy
You put a gun in my hand
And you hide from my eyes
And you turn and run farther
When the fast bullets fly

Like Judas of old
You lie and deceive
A world war can be won
You want me to believe
But I see through your eyes
And I see through your brain
Like I see through the water
That runs down my drain

You fasten all the triggers
For the others to fire
Then you sit back and watch
When the death count gets higher
You hide in your mansion
While the young people's blood
Flows out of their bodies
And is buried in the mud

You've thrown the worst fear
That can ever be hurled
Fear to bring children
Into the world
For threatening my baby
Unborn and unnamed
You ain't worth the blood
That runs in your veins

How much do I know
To talk out of turn
You might say that I'm young
You might say I'm unlearned
But there's one thing I know
Though I'm younger than you
That even Jesus would never
Forgive what you do

Let me ask you one question
Is your money that good?
Will it buy you forgiveness
Do you think that it could?
I think you will find
When your death takes its toll
All the money you made
Will never buy back your soul

And I hope that you die
And your death'll come soon
I will follow your casket
By the pale afternoon
And I'll watch while you're lowered
Down to your deathbed
And I'll stand o'er your grave
'Til I'm sure that you're dead

When I Die

To children and old men that wait to die, and if you need to cry.

Cry for your brother walking the street beside you and when you need me, put your arms around anyone and give to them what you need to give to me.

I want to leave you something.

Something better than words or sounds... look for me in the people I’ve known and loved. If you cannot give me away, at least let me live in your eyes and not on your mind.

You can love me most by letting hands touch hands... by letting bodies touch bodies.... by letting go of children that need to be free.

Love doesn’t die...

...people do.

So, when all that’s left of me is love...

...give me away.