Thank You Dillusionment

How bout getting off of these antibiotics

how bout stopping eating when I'm full up

how bout them transparent dangling carrots

how bout that ever elusive kudo

thank you
india

thank you
terror

thank you

disillusionment

thank you
frailty

thank you
consequence

thank you thank you
silence

how bout me not blaming you for everything

how bout me enjoying the moment for once

how bout how good it feels to finally forgive you

how bout grieving it all one at a time

thank you
india

thank you
terror

thank you

disillusionment

thank you
frailty

thank you
consequence

thank you thank you
silence

the moment I let go of it was the moment

I got more than I could handle

the moment I jumped off of it

was the moment I touched down

how bout no longer being masochistic

how bout remembering your divinity

how bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out

how bout not equating death with stopping

thank you
india

thank you
providence

thank you

disillusionment

thank you
nothingness

thank you
clarity

thank you thank you
silence