I don’t think I’m from this universe. I just don’t feel that I belong here. I don't feel that my friends are my friends, and my family isn’t my family. I mean, everything is wrong.
“Nothing is as it seems."
There are far and few of us who know that we should not trust anyone. I know I should not trust people, and most of my problems usually arise from me trusting others. I put my trust in people who I thought were my friends, only to have had my trust and expectations destroyed. It's too bad when a civilized population, peace-loving and living within the confines of the law, can no longer depend on a person’s word.
“there isn’t any truth in the fine print"
When you can completely trust the process of the universe and life, you will be supplied abundantly and you will be able to make your life work just the way you want it. The trust you give and have must be 100% or it is zero. It cannot be given under one condition and not under another.
If we could not trust the things we take for granted will occur without any effort on our part, the fear for our well-being would be so great we would not be able to enjoy our lives. Can you imagine what the world would be like, if we could not trust the food we buy, the water we drink or that the people we depend on would not manipulate or harm us? The only way we can expect others to trust us is, we need to be trustworthy ourselves, and especially to ourselves.
Unfortunately, many people don't trust themselves and the judgments and decisions they make. Therefore, they experience disharmony with their lives and their world. I believe that every experience happens for a larger reason.
You know it’s an amazing compliment to hear from someone that you’ve “changed”. Change can come about through learning. With this evolution, you are able to let go of your past; shed your skin; and be born again. I know I have changed, and I am a different person because of what happened. I'm definitely more aware of my intuition -for sure.
Since the move, I've been living my life in the now, and just simply "going with the flow".
So far, (knock on wood), everything just seems to be falling into place as it should.
When things go wrong, it makes it easier to appreciate them when they're right.
Think of it this way:
Maybe sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. Maybe there are patterns that connect seemingly unrelated events. Patterns are hidden in plain sight, you just have to know where to look. Things most people see as chaos actually follows subtle laws of behavior; galaxies, plants, sea shells...
The patterns never lie.
Hindsight, I often wonder about all of the crap that happened. I have to be thankful, because I'm in such a better place, and enjoying life so much more than I have in a long time. I trip when I think of the synchronicities that occur on a daily basis. What if I didn't have those "friends" that I didn't "trust", then I wouldn't have had all that crap happen, and I would not have ended up here - right now. This is where I need to be.
Although each person seems separate and independent, all of us are connected to patterns of intelligence that govern the whole cosmos.
Is everything connected? Yes!
Is the world a predictable set of patterns? Can one person really make a difference? Yes!
Can “one” person effect change? Yes!
Maybe I believed in all those lies so that you eventually I would learn whom to trust. Maybe it was the universe helping me "fine- tune" up gut feeling.
I trust that the people who have crossed my path are definitely meant to serve a purpose, whether it be to teach me a lesson, or to help me figure out who I am, or even, perhaps; who I need to be.
I trust that if you really look into the eyes of everyone you meet, you will know the very moment if that person was meant to affect your life in some profound way.
In closing, things that happened to me at the time, seemed so terribly horrible, painful and unfair, but as I sit here, I can clearly see that without me overcoming those obstacles, I would never have realized my potential strength, will power, and heart....all of which allowed me to let it go.
When I say, I have allowed myself to "let it go"...doesn't mean that I have actually, let it go...I'm holding on to it, never forgetting it, and taking control of the power of those who, by their actions, tried to control me.
I'm in control now, because I am the one who ended it. I am the one who decided how to react to it.
To all those people, who hurt me, betrayed my trust, and hurt my heart...I forgive you because you have helped me learn about trust, and the importance of being cautious to whom I open my heart to....and I will be forever grateful.
Of course, hindsight is 20/20, but I knew that something wasn't right the whole time, I just wasn't able to trust my "gut".
So what is the lesson to be learned?